Hardships

I honestly haven't told anyone about this but when I was the last one to leave the hospital I was lonely. I mean yes my family was there, but I just miss being with my friends doing whatever and being happy... Once I was moved to an intense rehabilitation center, I began to notice how hard it was to do what I love to do and to begin walking independently again.

I was also facing other personal issues that were not helping either, I would always think that I should've died that day so that I wouldn't face this much pain... And after every therapy session, I would honestly try to get my mind of any suicidal thoughts but it keeps creeping back into my mind...

No one knows about this except for one girl, she tries to tell me that I shouldn't think like this and that a lot of people loves me and that they'll be devastated if I leave. The reason why I didn't tell anyone about this is that I didn't want to bother anyone at all, I know that they're busy with their lives. None of my family knows about this until now once they read this, but I want to tell them that they don't have to worry anymore because I won't try something that will harm me. I am doing much better now and will only try to keep thinking positive.